When my sister came, I thought he'll be able to recover because the missing piece he was looking for is back. It was a big mistake, he got weaker and weaker each day. My mom, sister and I never failed to encourage him each day. Since my sister is here, we make sure that our God-given time will not be wasted. We spend it like it's the last day of our lives. We cannot go out and have fun because he's already weak, so, we just have our own little fun at home. We have our lunches in my mom's mini cactus garden. That's what he wanted so we gave it to him. He never forgot the memories my sister and I had when we were young. My hilarious rituals, my sister stealing bananas from our neighbor and all that. April 30 and he was still his usual self making jokes and teaching us values and science [he really loves science] we are going to have a swimming outing the day after.. my tito dan, tita lornie, ate kahren, kuya JM, kuya kehvin, kuya Kenneth, Ate Cat, my mom, him and me even had a talk about *sparks* when falling inlove.. we had a lot of fun and teasing tita lornie and tito dan.. aftr our swimming the next day, we went straight to manila east med center because he will have his blood transfusion.. he was really really weak.. he even thought that it was morning when it was actually 11:30pm.
when we went home the day after and that's when he really got weak. he was disoriented, a lil effort of standing up will make him sooo tired, he wasn't the man I knew before, the man I really enjoyed hangin out with..
May 4 he went back to the hospital, picked up by an ambulance.. I didn't know what to do.. walang wala ako sa sarili ko nun.. seeing him in pain makes me weak too. So he was confined, the doctors found out that there were 3veins that burst in his right brain. my sister, kuya kenneth, ate em, tito dan and I stayed with my mom. We always talk to him and encourage him that we can get through this. yes, we can.
May 5 he was getting better he can raise his arms and move his feet but still cannot manage to get up. 1am he woke up with his eyes wide open looking at the four needles injected to him. I talked to him and asked him if he still knows me then he shook his head. my tears came up in my eyes.. knowing that he have forgotten everything about me makes it hard to look at him, a father not knowing his daughter was very painful but I tried to understand because he was disoriented. 3pm that day he was improving and can even move a little more. 5pm came and his doctor suggested for blood transfusion.. we were all praying hard for him because the doctor said that anytime now he will let go.. during his blood transfusion while everybody was solemnly praying his eyes suddenly opened wide and he looked at my mom and started to have chills. his blood reacted because of the transfusion. i almost lost my mind and I was holding his hand and told him that never let go.. the seizures were repeated 5 times.. everybody was crying.. during the 5th seizure which is the longest and last one was the very painful thing I could ever remember.. my mom told him that he can let go now.. he was fighting so hard to live.. he was looking for air to breathe.. my mom, sister and I was beside him and we told him to just surrender and let go.. then it happened, the man i ever loved was gone.. I was out of my mind.. It was hard to lose a father, a friend and a teacher.. things were not easy for the three of us.. but we could not do anything else but just to set him free.. we know he's happy today and we are happy for him too.. he was freed from pain and sufferings.. hindi na siya nahihirapan pa..
that was the story of how my father died last May5 8:45pm.. it was so sad because their wedding anniversary is on May6.. there..
until now, my dad talks to me in my dreams i don't know why, maybe because he wasn't able to tell me everything he wanted to tell me before he died.. he won't be able to see me graduate and be who he wants me to be..
It's hard to lose a father.. So, from that day forward I really make my mom feel really loved and cared for.. unexpected things can happen..
here are some pictures on my father's wake and before he died:
my mom and dad. i took that picture. :)
my dad. making his signature look. hahaha. i miss him sooo much.
I'm so excited because my sister is at last coming home this sunday morning.
weeeeeee!
And another thing,
Our Sobremisana-Delgado Clan [my cousins in my mother side]will again be complete!
woot woot!
I miss the bonding with all of them.
I only usually hang out with Kuya Kehvin, Kuya Kenneth and Ate Kahren because they are only blocks away from our house while my other cousins are in San Pedro, Laguna.
at greenbelt. :] that was like 3 years ago? haha. :))
in Laguna but with missing titos and titas by that time. :)
we're complete and will again be this sunday.
atlast!
haha.
I just want to speed things up, I'm so excited.
Well, all of us here are thrilled too.
We can't wait to have our Sobremisana Reunion maybe in Real, Quezon or in Calatagan,Batangas.
as of now, my summer vacation is boring. It's not really a vacation for me because I'm stuck in the four walls of our house. Yes dear, STUCK. and it's HELL. All I do everyday is wake up, eat, do the laundry [thanks to our maid who left us, atleast masipag na ako. :)) ] sleep, surf the internet and lotsa more boring things.
AGH.
I'm getting sick of it.
hmmm,
I miss 2-20.
I miss the fun with them. wala si Maine eh. tsk.
waaaaa.
I sooooooo miss them. :(
I hope we could hang out some time.
So anyways,
I attended my cousin's graduation last Thursday (March 29)
It was Kuya Kehvin's graduation and of course I wanted to come because of his best bud Jovial/Jay. ayeee! :))
Upon arriving, we took pictures and met some of my cousin's classmates.
as expected , Jovial was there and I met his mom. woot woot! haha. :">
Well, to make the story short. I had a blast even though the whole ceremony was boring because imagine 388 students will be called one by one. woah. o.O I was touched with their graduation song entitled
"At the beginning"
"life is a road and I want to keep going love is a river I wanna keep flowing life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning I'll be there when the storm is through In the end I wanna be standing At the beginning with you.."
awwww. sweet! their farewell song was common it was also our farewell song during our graduation when I was in sixth grade. The song was "Thanks to You"
i'ts so common, right? After the dreadful graduation ceremony, they took pictures again. They are all vain y'know. haha. :))
so here are some pictures:
this is Jovial and my cousin Kehvin during their baccalaureate mass. :)
Kuya Kehvin with some of his classmates during the graduation ball.
Reggie, Kehvs, Jovial and a classmate before their march. :)
marami ako nyan. tsk. yung mga "dapat sana", "sayang" and "if only[s]" na mga lines. soobrang rami kong ganyan. grade 6 palang ako nun and ngayon ko lang naisip na kung hindi ko nalang sana ginawa yun edi masaya sana ako ngayon and sana hindi nalang ako ganun noon. oo. SAYANG talaga yung chance na yun. ngayon ko lang sya naisip kung kelan malayo na sya.[figuratively speaking ha?] ang hirap pala noh? sa huli mo lang malalaman [kung kelan lumayo na sya] na importante pala sya. nyaa. ang mahirap pa dun, nagkikita pa kayo each and every day sa eskwelahan niyo. and knowing na hindi mo na sya mababalik pa lalong lumalalala yung nararamdaman mong sakit. soo, mahirap talaga. ako? baong baon na ako sa mga regrets na toh. ewan. magulo eh. nahihiya ako sa taong yun kasi parang di parin kami nagkakaayos kahit 2 years ago pa yun. ang hirap niya makausap and kaibiganin ulit. ganun lang daw talaga ang life. sabi nga nila you have to face the consequences. hay nako, ito na ba yung consequence? yung pag snob niya sakin kahit may connection kami [through my kaberks] kahit papano? binigyan ko sya ng letter nuon nung retreat nila and sabi ko na sorry talaga dun sa mga nangyari and sana bati kami. Di ko alam kung anu yung reaction niya dun. grabe. sobrang nagsisisi na ako. I talked to my former classmate si Cham/momsie kagabi tapos nakwento ko nga yun sa kanya. and sabi niya baka hindi parin nagheheal or may malaki paring gap saming dalawa. anhiraaaaap. GAAAH. ayun. basta, nakakailang na sya. and parang I want him back. [woah? di naman siguro sa ganun. parang gusto ko lang mawala yung gap samin] ayun. so okay, nagdrama nanaman ako. wala lang. onti lang naman makakagets niyan eh. HI KAT, ALI, ABBY AND LEANNE! =)
so, anu nga ba meron ngayon?
ayun, ENGLISH DAY namin ngayon. so, nag music kami sandali mga 5 mins. lang. hehe. then start na ng english day namin. first was the speeches, ang galing ni KEVIN RIVOR! weeee. kahit di ka nasama sa top 3. okay lang yan! you still rock! =)
sa EXTEMPORANEOUS speech. I liked the topics. ang galing talaga and sobrang nagulat ako sa topic ni Abby tamang tamang tama talaga sa situation niya. woah. If I have 24 hours to live.. wow talaga. nagustuhan ko naman yung topic ni LeaIf I could go back in time.. WOOOOOW. parang gusto ko sana ako nalang yung extempo namin para dun ko masabi yung gusto ko iparamdam sa kanya. naks. loka. joke lan. If I could go back in time I'll change everything I've done wrong para wala na akong ireregret ngayon. weeeeee.
so, nanalo si Julian sa Extemporaneous speech. CONGRATS!
sa quiz bee naman, si Russell was 3rd ata? or 4th? ayun. basta.
tapos sa spelling si Sean, he won 2nd place! congraaats!
after the english day, lunch namin so I hung out with my berks and ayun. we tried to fix the conflict between my 'kaberks' and 'sis' [LOL]. ayun. hay nako, sa inyong dalawa.
**kung anu man ang resulta niyang conflict niyo. desisyon niyo yang dalawa. we're trying to help you pero parang wala lang sa isa. kayo rin. you'll regret it! [regret nanaman] swear. ayun. after lunch was Math. wala pa si Ms. Duka sa room so parang nagkagulo yung class namin and pagpasok ko palang may umiiyak na. tsk. siya nanaman. and this time, soobrang nagwawala na siya. so kinausap namin ni Apple yung mga dakilang pasimuno and ayun. clinear nila. napagsabihan kami ni Ms. Duka. ayun. hanggang naubusan na kami ng time. weee. =)
Science, naubos din yung time dahil sa nawawalang groupmates sa Lab Investigation ayun. leader pala ako di ko alam. tsk. hehe. ayun. kagrupo ko pala si Emman, Amira, Merlin, Quimbo, Mikki, Sean and Ralvin [nyakaw!]
ayun. dismissal, kasama ko sila Ali, Abby and Mikee. merienda sa canteen. ayun. nangulet si RR at Sean at nagpalibre ng Iced Tea. ayun. tapos libot libot sa campus. dun kami nakaisip ni Ali ng name na ME [wag niyo nang alamin kung sino sino yun. *ehem*] haha. kaya ayun.
hmn. i just remembered my experience when I was a kid and my greatest fear was no other than the DENTIST. so, yea, laugh all you want but that was me before. I remembered how I cried soo hard because I don't want my teeth to be pulled out and seeing the materials that the dentist used made me more scared.
dentists are my arch-nemesis (tama ba spelling? =p) when I was about 4-8 years old. yea, EIGHT years old. the only thing I ever loved about dentist is the teeth cleaning. When I was about 6 years old I dropped by to the dental clinic near our house for my teeth to be cleaned. realizing that it didn't hurt, I came back everyday just for the cleaning. I thought it's the same with brushing my teeth. Not knowing that my innocent mom will be paying for it later on. (hindi kasi alam ng mom ko na lagi akong nagpapalinis. =p) All my mom ever thought was that I'm just playing with the dentist's daughter Hannah. ayun. My mom was sooo surprised when she was told by the dentist (tita joy) that I have been coming there for my teeth to be cleaned and that she needs to pay for it. So, considering the fact that I was a 6-year-old girl who didn't know anything about the bills to be paid for. The dentist gave a 50% discount, I think? My mom just found it funny because I was so innocent about the bills and so she told me that teeth cleaning should only be done every 6 months. haha.
ayun. natuwa lang ako. naalala ko lang kasi. hehe.
it's not that i don't like him as my seatmate pero kasi lagi niya akong ginagamitan ng super pitik niya! masakit kaya! samahan mo pa ng kurot ni Sean! GAAAH.
I'm tortured! mamamata ata ako sa pwesto ko! nyaaa! hehe.
pero tuwa parin kami ni RR kasi katabi rin namin si Rull!
woooow. its been a week[??] since i last posted. AGH. its all because of this fuckin DSL. rawr.
today, we had a usual day. oh, my new seatmate is Kat. hmf. ayaw pa nga niya eh. huhu.
ayun. this day was oh-so-awesome. bastaa. andaming nangyaring masaya. weehee. haha. uhm. i arrived today sa school at about 6:00? or later than that and Ali was surprised that I was that early. hehe. ayun. I just used the free time to write some palanca letters for the retreatants [3-31], and hung-out with my berks. the usual laughtrip, exchanging of stories and teasing me with him rituals. ayun.
first subject was SCIENCE -wooosh [trip ko lang. angal ka?] laughtrip as usual.. then, formal lessons. weee. ayun.
second was SOCIAL SCIENCE I kept chatting with RR and Quimbo because Kat felt so cold so she exchanged with RR kaya ayun. unfortunately, with RR as my temporary seatmate I will be the one who will hear his corny jokes. haha. PEACE TAYO RR! =D so Mr. Lorenzo gave out the grades and I was so satisfied with mine. JLo congratulated me because he told me that I improved daw. yey. haha.
RECESS
third subject: MATH just pure lessons and an unexpected so-called visit from *ehem*. because the OHP that they will use is in our classroom. thank you Lord! LOL. ayun. lesson and daldalan with Quimbo and RR parin. =p fourth subject: Practical Arts we headed to the sewing room for our lesson there and good thing that the room is already airconditioned not like last year. =p we just took up all about food, nutrtion and alike. the 10 signs of good nutrition! weee. LOL. LUNCH I ate pipers and went sraight to the LRC where we usually see the 8th wonder of the world. haha. I just studied for English, helped Emman in typing and study again. oh, before i forget, THANK YOU ABBY AND BERNA! for the so-called help. hehe. alam na natin yun. =p
FILIPINO usual reporting of F and L. and another unexpected visit from *ehem*. hehe. ENGLISH ganun parin. we had a fishbowl activity. about the little incident.
*bow*
dismissal we [emman, Quimbo and me] hung-out in the guidance office and talked to ms.yabut. ayun.
